I laughed so hard that tears ran down my face on a Sunday afternoon.

I was thinking of you.

Re-playing our conversations, hearing your laugh ring out and seeing you as the happy, wonderful source of love in my minds eye.

So I sat and I laughed so hard that tears ran down my face on a Sunday afternoon.

Not because you were gone but because you had been.

Been the first person I turned to with my stories of bravery, joy and heartbreak.

When I needed someone to remind me who I was when the world humbled me.

I laughed so hard that tears ran down my face on a Sunday afternoon.

I sat and smiled as I reminded myself that your joy is deeply rooted inside of me.

A joy that makes others love me and that I bring to life everyday.

Knowing that I have everything you taught me to make myself and those in my hear seen and beloved.

I laughed so hard that tears ran down my face on a Sunday afternoon.

Feeling the power in that joy. To feel tears of joy, love and laughter vs. my sorrow.

I felt your warmth and light sitting there with those tears on my face.

And I didn’t let the sorrow come in, didn’t let it take over that moment.

I couldn’t let it ruin our laugh.

Love Ray.